Yes, I had a little chat with my soul today. Ok, I know that sounds weird but I was writing in my journal, the real pen on paper kind and I started to cry and cry. I had things to say and I had to let them out. I couldn't stop writing until I had said them all. My breathing got faster and I was only focused on what my gut was feeling. I was in physical pain, I could literally feel the inside of my stomach, the pit inside. After I wrote four pages of gut-wrenching, honest truth about myself and where I stand in the world, I could breathe. I was at peace. I looked up and saw my family again. I got up, I made dinner. We had pasta and broccoli. Just an average day but what happened during that writing was like reaching down into the depths of my soul and saying, I know you are there, I hear you. I hear you. I will live my truth, I will speak my truth. I won't let you suffer anymore. Have you had a chat with your soul yet?
I did my morning pages at 6:00 today, pm not am. I wrote 5 pages and not three, was I just trying to make up for the fact that I haven’t written in the last week or so? A friend asked if I was starting to write more. I didn’t remember telling her I was a writer so I was pleased when I was able to say yes, I have. Compared to the last 10 years, the past year has been one filled with writing. I’d love for the next year, starting today, to be one in which I write every day or pretty close to every day. I can do it. I know I can.
Standard Written English
Standard Written English is commonly known as SWE which are my initials. I am a writer, a teacher, a wife, a mother and dog owner of a wild and crazy chocolate lab.